{mind your words} love

Wednesday, June 6, 2012

"When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be."
- Lao Tzu

During my yoga training weekend in April our teachers brought up the concept of belief systems. Not belief systems in the sense of religion but belief systems as directly related to each of our individual selves. The belief systems we have been creating for ourselves since our life began...the belief systems we continue to build every time we tell our selves "I am ____" or "I can't do ____" or "I'm always ____".

And what rocked my world most from this discussion? What we have created/are continuing to create in our belief system? That shit is one hundred percent going to show up in our lives.

If I tell myself I am weak, I will be weak. If I tell myself I am not good enough, I won't be good enough. If I tell myself I am the embodiment of love, I will be the embodiment of love.

And, no, it's not like you tell yourself something and it just manifest instantaneously. But think about how long you've probably been telling yourself or been told certain "truths" about your character. I find it especially fascinating when you look at familial roles; she is a troublemaker, she is unorganized, he is lazy, she is volatile, she is aloof...for a lot of us, since we were children we have been cruising around and around in this little groove of what role we play/what role we feel we are expected to play.

So, for the entire month between our April and May trainings, I was almost terrified to say anything definitive about myself or the wee men for fear of making it a reality! But since my May training, I have settled down with this new knowledge and now I am just practicing as much as I can to maintain awareness of what I am telling myself or what I am telling the boys. It's amazing, when you start paying attention, how much you notice all the "beliefs" we are constantly throwing around.

Here's another quote:

"Your only identity is I AM undefined and infinite. Any label you give yourself limits yourself."
- Deepak Chopra

Oh hell, one more for good measure:

"Only when you become the conscious observer of all your mental activity and make informed choices do you approach true freedom."
- Dr. Rudy Tanzi

There you have it. A beautiful and simple concept, but an incredible lifelong practice.

Lastly, here's something completely random/brings me immense joy...my Japanese Toad Lily has finally pushed some shoots up! It survived the winter y'all!

{bad words} love

Friday, June 1, 2012

I was in the middle of trying to fit my very guilty/shame-filled pleasure of watching ANTM in yesterday when P's rest time in his room came to an end. He came downstairs and asked me if he could watch with me. Here's how that conversation went down:

P: What are you watching?

Me: America's Next Top Model.

P: Oh! Can I watch with you?

Me: No, it's a grown up show.

P: Why is it for grown ups?

Me: Because...sometimes they say bad words. (I know, I know, that is potentially the least of the reasons...)

P: What kind of bad words?

Me (whispering): shit

P (sneaky smile, whispering too): Do they sometimes say the really bad word that sounds like a cow poo coming out?

Me (totally perplexed): Which bad word sounds like a cow poo coming out?

P (still whispering): You know, the one I accidentally said once.

Me: Sorry bud, I'm not sure. How about, just this one time, you say it so that I know which one it is?

P (hesitates, then in a voice even quieter than before): fffffucccckkkkk

Me (trying very hard not to laugh): That is a really bad word. One of the worst hey? And it does sound like a cow poo coming out!

Can you imagine? Every time the wee P has been going out to help with chores at the ranch his little ears are being bombarded with eff bombs!

Have a lovely weekend. We're moving cows at the ranch and I am going to have an even more difficult time with how offensive their bums are now that they are not only smelly but also eff bombing all over the place!

End of the week phone purge!

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